My Date With the Dentist

Yes and Amen! all glory to Jesus... Dad brought me to the gov dental clinic to get my teeth spotcheck. The dentist said I had few holes in my teeth. I was shocked and worried whether will it get worse. Couple of negative thoughts rushing through my head, ooo... Rachel, you can't have ice-cream *that's my favourite food*, You can't have this and that. Having high LDL already made me so worried, and this?? She said I have to come back for an appointment which 2 months later. Gosh, I don't want to have a foreign body in my teeth... I was bugging my dad to bring me to the private dental clinic for a second opinion. But it was expensive but I can't sleep tonight if I don't get it solved. My parents wasn't keen but I was determined.

Walking in a place I'm not familiar, unsure of the location, searching around..till I see a medical centre... Nope.. Continue walking..and I said to God, "God, let the hole in my teeth be gone, in your will, in Jesus name". I remember one of John Hagee's sermon, about The A.S.K formula for winners. I am sure you all know about this verse, Matthew 7: 7

A.S.K= Ask, Seek, Knock
ask and it will be given to you,
seek and you will find,
knock and the door will be opened to you.

The pastor said God does nothing until you start praying and when we ask according to God's will, it shall be given until you. If you don't ask, it's a guarantee NO!
As I walking and searching, I saw a Klinik Pergigian. Wow.. Praise the Lord. I didn't have any thoughts of "it's expensive, no money ah". Well, that's usually happens to me when I have to pay for something more than I can afford.

Dentist: Welcome, dear.
Me: Hi, dr! I think I have a hole in my teeth.
Dentist: Okays, sit awhile k. *she was attending to a patient*

I sat and watched tv. I wasn't thinking about my teeth at that time. Couple of minutes passed by.

Dentist: So what can I do for you?
Me: Errr... *money still a matter*... Dr, how much it cost? Do you have a student price? *I know it's embarrassing to negotiate, but I only have RM200 in my pocket*
Dentist: You're a student? We don't have student price. Consultation is 20 and filling is depends and 60-80 for one filling. Why don't I check your teeth first? That'll be 20.
Me: Ooo.. *i have so many holes, this gonna cost me*

She registered me and started asking where am schooling and such. Coincidently, her daughter wants to take up medicine in IMU. She thought am a medic student. Hahaha!!! She kept asking me about how's medicine and such. Thank God, at least I have some medic friends, otherwise I know nothing. She start diagnosing my teeth....

Dentist: Let me see and gurgle your mouth first k.
Me: Okays ^^
Dentist: Okays, hmmm.. *she puzzled*
Me: Is it really bad? *am having palpitations*
Dentist: Well, dear.. I can't see any...
Me: Huh??? *shocked* err... what you mean, dr?
Dentist: There is no hole in your teeth, my dear. I only see plaques.
Me: Oh, REALLY????? *I was rejoicing and singing thanks and praise in my heart*
Dentist: Yup, there's only a small catch.
Me: Really, dr? No hole?
Dentist: Yes, my dear
Me: * I ask again* Really?
Dentist: Yea... *I guessed she tired answering me*
Me: Thank God!!!!!!
Dentist: Why do you think you have hole in your teeth?
Me: Cos the gov dentist said so..
Dentist: Oh, don't worry k. There's none.
Me: Hehehe....
Dentist: Do you wanna scale your teeth? that'll be 80. *she wanna make money again, she's so funny*
Me: Err... that can wait right?
Dentist: Yea, but not too long k. Come sit down with me, save the 20 bucks.
Me: Huh? No need to pay ah?
Dentist: It's ok, you're a student anyway. Come, tell me more about medicine in IMU.
Then, we talked and talked. Finally, I got to make a stand.... "Actually, I am a nursing student".
She was puzzled again... She's so cute...

After this incident, I made up my mind to care for my teeth even more that I do now. It's precious to me. Emmanuel, God with us. He will take care of you every little little things from your strands of hair till your little toes. ^^ If you believe that God can heal you through Christ Jesus, everyday is a miracle to you. It was a miracle to me. My life has been joyful with Christ and you can lean on Him for his peace. Phillipians 4: 7 says

and the peace of God,
which transcends all understanding,
will guard your hearts
and your mind in Christ Jesus.
Amen.

p/s: hey,people! remember to brush your teeth thrice a day since twice a day still can cause plaques. hahaha!! XD and floss once a day too.. Go for your frequent dental checkup yea~

Bits and Pieces Part 1

Hehehe... Finally sem 3 has come to an end. I was yearning so much for a break after the stressful life in hospital. Gosh, it was really the most tiring sem ever despite I didn't study much though. hehe.. By God's grace, He let me thru this sem. Well, I don't really bother much about my grades cos I am really thankful for A PASS! It wasn't because am lazy or didn't put effort into studying, but more towards seeking for His presence. Once, I was reading the bible till I can't let go of it. Honestly, I don't know why but am sure God is working something in me. He revealed many things to me and He knows am ready to handle those circumstances. I began to understand more about the life and character of the people around me. He thought me how to stand firm and not to allow surroundings to affect my life.

Thoughts and Questions which strengthens me:

1. How do I read the bible if am so busy and worried about my studies?

I said, spending few moments or hours with God is timeless. He will lengthen the time without you realizing. You will realise that "busy" is just an excuse of a human nature, "worry" is a lie from the Satan to your flesh.

2. How can I bring my boyfriend who is a non-Christian to Christ?

This is the hardest one. I don't whether what I said will condemn the person but I can't lie to the holy spirit. I was praying that God will give wisdom and grace to give an answer. I said, in the bible we are not to be equally yoke with non-believers. I guess that answer has hit the person. God gives us the freedom to choose the right or wrong. If we choose our own pathways, He can't lead us towards His will. Light and darkness? can they have a relationship?

3. Why insecurity remains in our hearts? (it's mine own)

It's because am not sure what going to happen in future, I didn't hold on the promises of God, I didn't read the bible with conviction in my heart. God's word prevails every single bits and pieces of us and for us to prepare ourselves. Jesus came and established God's heavenly kingdom on Earth and died on the cross for our sins. He has went through all the pain, suffering and insecurity for us. I started to proclaim the name above all name, Jesus Christ! Through Him, my insecurity is gone! We have to believe in simple faith that God has brought healing to us before it happens. Faith is believing. My parents faith has thought me to be stronger.

On the Nov 30th, I was having difficulties in breathing and my chest became tighter and tighter. I was struggling and rolling on the bed wishing that it will go away. My faith was challenged at that moment. I felt being strangled and suffocated. The night was a nightmare to me. Tears was rolling down on my cheeks. Both of my hands was holding on my chest. Dad and mum started to pray for me. They didn't even think of sending me to the hospital cos their faith on God was really strong. They prayed in tongues and lay hands on me. At first, I didn't get well but I proclaim Jesus name in my heart, pray that it will go off. After some time, I began to be lethargic and tired. I rested and slept peacefully. Hallelujah~ Thank you Jesus!

This incident has thought me that God is preparing me for Greater Things. I am a MIRACLE !

4. What happens when someone asked, "What is Christmas?", the true reason for this season?

John 3:16 For God so loved the world that He gave His begotten son, whosoever believe in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. It's the celebration of the birth of Christ our Messiah (Saviour) and He came to redeem us from our sin and trangressions.

5. I have seen a believer falling away and backsliding... What should I do?

Honestly, I don't know what to do. He believed in Christ and started to turn his face away from Christ. This is a sign of crucifying Christ on the cross again. I could say am not strong enough but all I did was to encourage him whenever I can. I pray that he will open up his heart to Jesus and change with conviction. And to let go his past..

6. "I feel suffering and why I have to go through this?" said Uncle George

The Holy Spirit spoke to me, "Lay your hands and Pray for this man". My faith was weak and disobeyed the still small voice. I went back home with a deep thoughts in me why did I disobeyed the word of God. I questioned and condemned myself till the Word of God came alive in me. Jesus came not to condemn us but to redeem us from our sins. Then, I wrote a prayer and verse in Psalm 23 (wanna read with me? ^^)

the Lord is my shepherd, i shall not want,

he makes me lie down in green pastures,

he leads me beside quiet waters,

he restores my soul

he guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake,

even though i walk,

through the valley of the shadow of death,

i will fear no evil,

for you are with me,

your rod and your staff,

they comfort me,

you prepare a table before me,

in the presence of my enemies,

you anoint my head with oil,

my cup overflows,

surely goodness and love will follow me,

all the days of my life,

and i will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.

I visited him and saw him still the same. He wasn't feeling any better. I reached out towards his hand and hand him a little note of Prayer and Psalm 23 in it. He open it up and said, thank you.. I could feel the sense of joy and happiness filled his spirit. He asked, "is this your hand writing? it looks like being printed out". I just smiled cos deep inside me, I was rejoicing silently. I have never seen his smile ever since I met him. It was great. Truly it was a BLESSING and the presence of the Lord was with me. He held my hand and was grateful. Jesus loves you, this you know.. Uncle, don't worry too much k cos God is with you. Get well soon and greater things is awaiting for you. ^.^God, continue to use me mightily and Your kingdom shall reign forever.

Till then...

Suffering makes a Man

Bittersweet?? Sighs.... I'm reflecting back my 20 years of life on Earth. The good and bad memories which I could not contain it in my mind. But God's Love was unfailing towards me. No matter what I do, He never fails to seek me diligently. Early of last year, I worked in a Christian Bookstore. One of my objective to seek God. I knew I did well in some parts and I knew I made mistakes. Sometimes it's really hard to understand His ways and I tend to follow my ways. Sometimes it's take something for a sacrifice to fulfill God's will. It's part of an adversity in life that I'm going through. However, as I keep believing in Him, I shall not be weary because I know I can hold on Him when I am weak.

I read a book called Right and Wrong Thinking by Kenneth E. Hagin. It is a wonderful book to read to increase my faith in God. I remembered when I asked Dad and he said Suffering is not from God but He allows it to happen for our own good so that we can turn back to him. It happens when we are not walking right with God, and Satan takes the opportunity to influence our mind. Kenneth Hagin said it all.

"If a sinner's thinking is straightened out to begin with, his believing made right, and his confession made right, then it will be much easier for him to "stay put". If he comes in on the wrong basis , the devil takes advantage of what he doesn't know and he becomes defeated and robbed of that which God has actually done for him. Of course, if he has not been taught the Word- to hold fast to his confession of faith-naturally the devil will camouflage the situation and try to make him feel that he is not saved. Because of little mistakes he makes, the devil tells him, "Well, you are done for, so now you may as well give up and quit".

It is hard to understand what God's plan underlying for me. I always think that God forgets about me but that happens when I am not walking right with God. I tend to forget what He has done for me and ask for more. I can't understand His will because I always want it to be my way. My selfish thoughts have never run dry. It takes a long long time for me just to realised how important for me to hold fast on my faith and keep believing that God is the Jehovah Jireh that will provide. I am also afraid that I will stumble again and start all over again. When I see other brothers and sisters in Christ who are growing faithfully in Christ, I felt alone. When I felt guilty and my conscience telling that I'm at wrong path, I will pray with the Lord's prayer. As I pray, I pour out all my emotions unto God. Sometimes people asked me why am I so calm? Because the Lord is in me! The work of the Holy Spirit is awesome and I can't comprehend. Lord Jesus died on the cross and rose again for our sins. He was sinless and persecuted by His own people yet His unconditional love saved from our sins.

Romans 10:9-10 says "That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made to salvation."

I just can't imagine how wonderful God's love and I overwhelmed. I can never comprehend.. never.. It's just too wonderful.