Hehehe... Finally sem 3 has come to an end. I was yearning so much for a break after the stressful life in hospital. Gosh, it was really the most tiring sem ever despite I didn't study much though. hehe.. By God's grace, He let me thru this sem. Well, I don't really bother much about my grades cos I am really thankful for A PASS! It wasn't because am lazy or didn't put effort into studying, but more towards seeking for His presence. Once, I was reading the bible till I can't let go of it. Honestly, I don't know why but am sure God is working something in me. He revealed many things to me and He knows am ready to handle those circumstances. I began to understand more about the life and character of the people around me. He thought me how to stand firm and not to allow surroundings to affect my life.
Thoughts and Questions which strengthens me:
1. How do I read the bible if am so busy and worried about my studies?
I said, spending few moments or hours with God is timeless. He will lengthen the time without you realizing. You will realise that "busy" is just an excuse of a human nature, "worry" is a lie from the Satan to your flesh.
2. How can I bring my boyfriend who is a non-Christian to Christ?
This is the hardest one. I don't whether what I said will condemn the person but I can't lie to the holy spirit. I was praying that God will give wisdom and grace to give an answer. I said, in the bible we are not to be equally yoke with non-believers. I guess that answer has hit the person. God gives us the freedom to choose the right or wrong. If we choose our own pathways, He can't lead us towards His will. Light and darkness? can they have a relationship?
3. Why insecurity remains in our hearts? (it's mine own)
It's because am not sure what going to happen in future, I didn't hold on the promises of God, I didn't read the bible with conviction in my heart. God's word prevails every single bits and pieces of us and for us to prepare ourselves. Jesus came and established God's heavenly kingdom on Earth and died on the cross for our sins. He has went through all the pain, suffering and insecurity for us. I started to proclaim the name above all name, Jesus Christ! Through Him, my insecurity is gone! We have to believe in simple faith that God has brought healing to us before it happens. Faith is believing. My parents faith has thought me to be stronger.
On the Nov 30th, I was having difficulties in breathing and my chest became tighter and tighter. I was struggling and rolling on the bed wishing that it will go away. My faith was challenged at that moment. I felt being strangled and suffocated. The night was a nightmare to me. Tears was rolling down on my cheeks. Both of my hands was holding on my chest. Dad and mum started to pray for me. They didn't even think of sending me to the hospital cos their faith on God was really strong. They prayed in tongues and lay hands on me. At first, I didn't get well but I proclaim Jesus name in my heart, pray that it will go off. After some time, I began to be lethargic and tired. I rested and slept peacefully. Hallelujah~ Thank you Jesus!
This incident has thought me that God is preparing me for Greater Things. I am a MIRACLE !
4. What happens when someone asked, "What is Christmas?", the true reason for this season?
John 3:16 For God so loved the world that He gave His begotten son, whosoever believe in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. It's the celebration of the birth of Christ our Messiah (Saviour) and He came to redeem us from our sin and trangressions.
5. I have seen a believer falling away and backsliding... What should I do?
Honestly, I don't know what to do. He believed in Christ and started to turn his face away from Christ. This is a sign of crucifying Christ on the cross again. I could say am not strong enough but all I did was to encourage him whenever I can. I pray that he will open up his heart to Jesus and change with conviction. And to let go his past..
6. "I feel suffering and why I have to go through this?" said Uncle George
The Holy Spirit spoke to me, "Lay your hands and Pray for this man". My faith was weak and disobeyed the still small voice. I went back home with a deep thoughts in me why did I disobeyed the word of God. I questioned and condemned myself till the Word of God came alive in me. Jesus came not to condemn us but to redeem us from our sins. Then, I wrote a prayer and verse in Psalm 23 (wanna read with me? ^^)
the Lord is my shepherd, i shall not want,
he makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul
he guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake,
even though i walk,
through the valley of the shadow of death,
i will fear no evil,
for you are with me,
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me,
you prepare a table before me,
in the presence of my enemies,
you anoint my head with oil,
my cup overflows,
surely goodness and love will follow me,
all the days of my life,
and i will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.
I visited him and saw him still the same. He wasn't feeling any better. I reached out towards his hand and hand him a little note of Prayer and Psalm 23 in it. He open it up and said, thank you.. I could feel the sense of joy and happiness filled his spirit. He asked, "is this your hand writing? it looks like being printed out". I just smiled cos deep inside me, I was rejoicing silently. I have never seen his smile ever since I met him. It was great. Truly it was a BLESSING and the presence of the Lord was with me. He held my hand and was grateful. Jesus loves you, this you know.. Uncle, don't worry too much k cos God is with you. Get well soon and greater things is awaiting for you. ^.^God, continue to use me mightily and Your kingdom shall reign forever.
Till then...
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