Blessed Birthday to ADRI-RACH-EL

Yea! It's Adriel's birthday sharp at 1200 hr today. However, we celebrated his birthday along with mine even though it's slightly earlier by two days. At least we can save cost on cakes and I'll be in BJ during that time. It was really great. Daddy took all of us to sunway pyramid to get our birthday gifts. Dad is a practical person, he won't simply buy gifts for us. He enjoys watching us shopping for what we want and likes. heheeee... So we took Adriel to get his shoes in Jusco. Hmmm.. it was a Pallas casual shoes. It was rather cute and suitable for him. Why? :p heheee.. cos it's HEAVY, then he can't be so hyperactive lor. It was my idea but it was chosen by mom and dad. Adriel likes it too. That means I like it too. :) I was thinking of taking photo of it but camera out of battery. oooppsss....

Then, we proceed our journey for my birthday gift. I told dad it's okay that he don't need to get me anything. but he insisted cos he said once a while only k. It's not always daddy buy things for you. Come, I get shoes for you too. Honestly, I got too many pairs of shoes, but dad insisted. So, okay lor. Heheee... We went to Jusco, couldn't find the right size. I like the white heels so much. Oh well, my feet was too big for the shoes. So I couldn't get it lor. So we walked till we reached a shop named Padini Concept Store. Ah huh, a person like me who never go to big complexes to shop for shoes one. All I get are from small shoes shop or BATA, Buy And Throw Away. hahahaa XD old lame jokes! I didn't really like those heels at first. For two reason, it wasn't comfortable and expensive. I am well-known over my stingy-ness. Hahahaaa.. It's God's money and not my money so I am accountable over the things that I spent. Then, daddy has a good taste and he saw a heels which quite suits me. He said it looks nice on me. So I tried and tried to wear it. I couldn't. Then, one of the promoter who is a GUY tied the string of the shoes for me. One moment, I felt like Cinderella but I was too shy to look up so I just allow him. Dad was there looking and I guess he didn't mind. I think I took quite long till the promoter tired of serving me. Am just too fussy. :p But finally I got it. Hmmm... with 10% discount. It wasn't really bad tho. That was my birthday-shopping day. Then, we get our birthday cake lor! That's the most important thing to end everything well. Heheheeee... And Koh koh gave me an Olympus digital camera. I have been wanting it so much. Even though I paid half of it, I am still happy!!! *hugs* Thanks, Koh! Thanks, Kay Teck for the advanced gift. I like it so much. :)

ADRI-RACH-EL Birthday Cake

Till then. Heavenly Father, I wanna thank you for loving me so much these years. Thank you for guiding my paths and making my paths straight. No matter what has happened or occured in my life, You have taught me so much. Even to the deepest sadest pit of my life, You saved me up from the pit. I have been going through so much but I will continue to go through it no matter how hard or tough. Cos I know it'll be according to Your will. Daddy asked me how is that I can still be strong even though so many times I have been hurt and disappointed? Simple, all by God's grace. He has carried me through all circumstances. I may cry more than a thousand times, but Jesus has cry more agony than I do. Daddy and mommy said that they will always support and encourage me. I have learnt the best part of life that is to be my parent's pet or friend. Now I that I know I can share with them anything from A to Z cos I know they understands me more than anyone else. I am also glad they know everything! I am so relieved... Thank you, Jesus for the courage You've given me. There's no such thing as generation gaps, teens. You just got to make something good out of it. This 22th birthday of mine is memorable and allows me to step out with greater spiritual maturity. The greatest birthday gift of all is God's First Love for me and I just wanna keep loving Him. I have nothing more to complain or ask. His saving grace is sufficient for me. :)) Thank you, God and everybody~

Dearest Baby

I dedicate this to dearest one who has been been with me for almost 7 years. You're so cute, adorable, gentle and kind hearted. God has blessed us such a wonderful person into our lives. You have been our dearest of the dearest of all. His favourite nursery rhymes are especially Old Macdonald and Twinkle twinkle little star. Every time I try to sing Old Macdonald, he will put his finger on my mouth. Perhaps, I sang it very badly. But when I sing twinkle twinkle little star, he'll fall asleep in my arms. How sweet is he? :)
He also loves Veggie Tales and grown up with it since born. I uploaded a the song of the Cebu, his favourite one into my phone. At least I can watch it when I am not at home. I let him watch it whenever he is unhappy or just to make him more happy. Sometimes, he'll try to dig into my handbag or pocket  for my phone just to watch it. He's so cute.



Adriel, Your birthday is this coming February 28th. God has blessed daddy and mommy with your wonderful existence. Your birth has taught us how to live better to like Christ. He has taught us to live stronger day by day, He has said lean not unto our own understanding  but to rest in Him. He has shown us wonderful love, grace and mercies upon our lives. Some have put us down or discouraged us, but we'll never give up. All because you're the dearest of the dearest child of God. You're so special in the eyes of the Lord, You're unique in the image of God, You're safe in the hands of the Lord. He has created you to shine His glory to tell the world that all things are possible through Him. Circumstances that brought us down but we'll NEVER  proclaim impossible. We believe that you're healed, little baby. Don't give up, baby. You may not be able to express out your deepest desires or feelings, God knows everything about you even the number of your hair. He has also taught us to appreciate every little little things that He has blessed us with. Even a simple "hi or bye' from you means so much to us.

Little baby, Jie really proud of you because you've improved a lot by God's grace. Every time you say bye bye, I feel the joy in my heart. Jie will just shed tears but Jie has to control herself. :) Jie is sorry for not spending so much time with baby cos Jie always busy with uni work. But Jie wants to tell you that Jie Jie loves you so much, baby. You're a treasure in our hearts. When Jie has the time, Jie will take care of you always. Little baby, you have grown up so much yet Jie still treat you like a baby. Jie is shedding tears while dedicating this little note to you. Jie pray someday when you can read ABC and words better, you can read this note aloud to me. For now, let God touch your spirit to understand our deepest desires. Daddy, mommy, Koh koh, Jie Jie, Yi Jie LOVE little Adriel always. However, Jesus Loves You more than anyone could. You know? You're name is Adriel Tan Yuet Yang. Adriel means follower of God. Yuet Yang means Little Lamb. Your a little lamb who will follow his shepherd.  Jesus is our Shepherd and He will always take care and protect you. :)

HAPPY BLESSED BIRTHDAY, LITTLE ADRIEL. 

*hugs and kisses from Jie*

Rae's Confession

God, I am sorry for all the sins that I have done. My dad and I are ruined because of all the mistakes. I have indulged in the things that does not glorify God. I have betrayed my own conscience to do the right thing. Both of us have come to realisation. Relationship based on sweet talk and intimacy doesn't work. I pray that both of us will be a better person in future. Despite of my ways, from Jonathan Goh to Kay Teck, I have learnt much from you. Would you forgive me? Thank you, Lord. You're so gracious and merciful to such sinner like me. You have taught me how to love a person wholeheartedly. But if its not your will, I will let it go, Father.

Dear Mr. Right, no matter what you've done to me or other girls, I forgive you cos the Lord first forgiven us. Till the day God affirms you're my Mr. Right, I will right here waiting for you. I wish one day I could know and see you in righteously way. I pray that God will reveal His answer to me. Well, I better be honest. Kay Teck, am not sure whether you're Mr. Right but I am sure of my feelings for you. I am starting to treasure the kindness and goodness of you. No matter what happened between us, I still believe God has greater things for me to experience and understand. Otherwise, you won't say "NO" to me. You said, "You see me just as a friend" I was insecure and afraid and worry for nothing. Indeed we weren't righteous before Him. Everything tumbled just like a building on a sand. Lord, if he is not the person, ERASE him off from my thoughts and mind. Let me forget who he is. It is not worth if it is not meant for me. God, you know better than and what's best for me. Lord, once I felt your peace within me and now too.

Kay Teck, you said, " you said you don't have feelings for me bot because chasing another girl or a girl likes, but because you wanna be closer to God". I hope that's the truth. Cos that just exactly the same reason Jonathan Goh gave me. Lord, I pray that You will help me discern what's right and what's wrong. I pray that I will not fall into the same pit again. Build my emotions and mental stability, Lord.

Rachel---

Beloved Siblings

Now it's 4.51am Malaysian Time. I am studying anemias and was too bored ler.. So this is what I did. Heheeee... I love my siblings ooo.. *hugs*

From left top: Koh Koh and me

From left bottom: Adriel and Julia

O Praise Him

Am not ashamed of the gospel~ gonna praise Him until the top of my lungs~ Lord, you're good that your love endures forever! Halleluya...Halleluyaaa... Amen!



Lord Jesus, I love You. I wanna spend the rest of my life with you. Use me mightily. Touch the heart of Ah Kong and Ah Ma. Heal my granduncle in Your name, Jesus~ XOXO. :)

Same Age with Two Different Destinations

It was indeed the best time ever spending time with my family. We are united. Dad fetched Koh Koh from Muar and we enjoyed being together most of the time. However, I had done my very best to do what He desires me to do. I took the step of courage to pass the bible to ah kong. A first few times I was walking up and down to the kitchen. He was cleaning up some stuff in the kitchen and I wanted to help but he refused. So I tried giving him the bible with full expectation that he will accept it. But he didn't. Dad and Mom saw my expression. Dad was very worried that I'll be discouraged because of it. I wasn't discouraged but more likely being very sad. I really want ah kong to be saved. *sighs* He didn't say anything harsh to me yet he still smile at me. so I thought there's hope but nope. It was a beautiful smile from him. As a grandchild, I have never experience loving touch from my grandparents. Even dad's side has already gone. (I feeling like crying now) Dad and Mom asked me not to be sad and said that I have done my best. Maybe try again later. Keep praying k. Koh Koh said am very emotional. I guess so. I have been like that since I was born I think.

What I think about Ah Kong?
A hardworking person, quiet, sometimes fussy, caring and concern. I just prayed hard that one day Jesus will come and shine and touch his heart. Ah Kong, before you "shunned" me off, I just wanna say that Jesus Ai Ni. Ta hen xiang jing ni de xin. Ah Kong, wo men ye hen ai ni oh. He is Teochew but I can only speak Mandarin (thanks to my friends). Better than nothing right? heheheeee...

Today, we went visiting to dad's father's sister's son which is daddy's cousin, Uncle Daniel. We met up with Uncle Daniel's father. He is the late 70s about the same age as Ah Kong. He is diagnosed with end stage colon cancer. Well, all thanks to God that he is still surviving till today. The last time we met him was May last year. But he has grown a lot thinner and we spend the whole evening talking to him. As usual daddy always worried for people. He kept encouraging him to stay with Jesus and never give up. And always confess Jesus is our healer and redeemer. In the name of Jesus and by His stripes, we are healed. We got to believe in miracles. God has been very gracious to him and am glad he still never give up. He did say that he is bored of staying at home doing nothing. Hmmm.. nothing much we can do but to believe in Jesus. All things are possible for Him. Before we left, we prayed for him. I could see the wonderful smile on his face and he packed angpows for us too. He was really happy to see us. Dad said he will come and visit him again whenever we are free. Glad that he believe Jesus as his personal Lord and Saviour. All things will end good in Him.

I have learnt a lot about persistency in prayer. The "ASK=Ask, Seek and Knock" is the key of salvation and victory. We just gotta be more persistent and never give up or fail. Just keep hanging on and allow God to use us mightily to do His great things. The heart of seeking requires a humble and sincere heart. Humble and sincere just like how children thinks. That's all we need to reach out to Him. ^^

A note for Grandpa

As i was reading my chronic renal failure notes; suddenly, a thought came into my mind saying, "time has come, grandpa needs a bible". (really random) it wasn't audible to me but it was strongly my conscience. i have strong belief that it was the holy spirit speaking to me. at the same time, i was reading the book of revelation as part of my devotion. i really desire to know and wanna prepare myself to anticipate Jesus' second coming. as i was reading, i also remembered i heard once about the consequences of not being saved and not knowing Jesus. I read one of Mary K. Baxter book before when i was working in Salvation. seriously, it was scary to be in hell. our flesh will die but soul and spirit remains alive for eternity. those believe in Jesus will go to heaven but those who does not believe in him shall perish (torture and burn)  in hell forever. i really afraid that my grandparents will go to hell. i really don't want it to happen... T.T

last year, dad preached the gospel to them and they persecute him badly. but i could see his perseverance. i guessed Jesus was the same too. so this time i decided to obey the holy spirit and bought a chinese bible for grandpa. i shouldn't be afraid of persecution too. i also talked to dad and mom about it and he said, "do as what the Holy Spirit convicts you to do". Cos i know we're Christian, we will go heaven but faith without works is dead. it doesn't end till here. God has lots of things to be accomplished, the gospel shall be preached to all nation. Yea, i think that should be the way. it's rather a great challenge to me cos i rarely talked to ah kong. i don't really know how to speak my mother language which is hokkien and i am well-known for being a banana. however, i believe God will use me mightily to reach out to my loved ones. if am not mistaken, grandpa is already 86 or 87 years old. Continue to keep grandpa in prayers...

Thank You!

Dear my beloved friend-from-far-far-away, thanks for being there for me. Though obstacles has made us apart, God has brought us together. ^^

Monday blues

i had classes from 9-5 plus everyday. gosh, it's really tiring. i almost went into my dreamland after staring into presentation slides. my eyes were so tired and malathi said she can see my eyes are becoming blurry. i guessed i was really tired, not becos am sleepy but more likely am thinking too much. perhaps, rachel, you've to stop thinking so much and stay focus, girl. she kept tickling me to keep me awake, yea.. it was effective for a moment, then i was "fishing" again.. hahaha.. life in uni can't be like this! God has put me here and i have to stay focus. Yea! stay focus. don't you get it, rachel? i have developed pre-operative care for tmr's lecture. i hope it's good enough cos my mind seems can't focus. sighs.. what has happened to me? ahuh.. then, i watched a couple of hannah montana episodes to keep myself more entertained and relaxed. well, it worked for awhile but it reminds me a lot of memories especially the movie.

i miss memories that i had. just wish time would fade it away....

CNY Reunion Dinner (Daddy's side)

i had a great day today though I was having bad and irritable bowel. i have been visiting the toilet since morning till midnight. i guessed it must be the "nasi lemak" dad bought me for breakfast. it was rather awful and painful but bearable. why great day? cos i had a great DINNER & REUNION with my grandma, uncles, aunties and cousins. it has been a year ever since i met them. hmmm.. rarely catch up with them cos life's been busy with family issues and uni life ma. most of my cousins have really grown a lot and made me reflect over myself how much i have grown so far too... >.< sounds like am aging.. yea, kinda worried that i might age too fast. dad was given the honour to say grace and i was given the honour to eat. hahaha XD super lame... alright, let's start..

 

 

well, pictures said it all. too many to upload though. for more, check out my fb then. hehehee~~~however, tis is sufficient to cherish the joy and happiness i had with my big big family. heheee.. great reunion, great family, great fellowship and great food and mostly, we have a great God! ^^ thank you, Jesus! am so full and overwhelmed too.. till then...