"I will soar on wings like eagles, I will run and not grow weary"

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

2nd phase

It's the second day since he left for UK. We have been keeping in touch with each other since March. Life's was great and he was a nice person. How do I describe him? a) Kind b) Caring c)Cute d) Adorable e) Godly f) Prioritise others over himself g) Love me loads h) and he's my darling. Honestly, am not sure of my feelings but I do feel something for him. I am not sure and I don't want to jump into relationship.He is gonna be a future doctor. Good and responsible one. I really misses him a lot. I hope he'll fulfil his promise to treasure me lor. Despite of the uncertainty, i really like him as friend. However, we're in a second phase-courtship.

Bracelet - friendship
Necklace - courtship

See how it goes then. Am not sure cos he'll be there for long. What is he does housemanship there? Sighs...I hope I could see him next year.

This was the only movies we went together. :)

Monday, June 29, 2009

Shout Out 4 Toyin~~~!!!

Dear Toyin,
Here I am to thank you for being with us this far in Nursing! I am glad that you've found what you wanted always. I hope you'll continue to love and rock nursing in Canada. All the best!!! May God always be with you and grant you journey mercies as you pursue your studies.

My prayer for you my dear: Heavenly father, thank you for allowing me to know such wonderful friend. She is my first foreign friend I ever had. She has taught me so much on life and helped me grow maturely, Lord. Grant her strength, peace and wisdom as she move on her life in a new place. Take care of her that she will be away from her friends and family. Pour out your love, peace and joy unto her and help her experience more of you, Lord. Father, help her whenever she needs it and I pray that one day by your will we'll united together back. WE ALL LOVE HER. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

p/s: Don't forget to put our names in ur guest book...=P

I am gonna miss you so so so much ler... Why u hav to go????!!! T.T
Who's gonna entertain us like you always do?? *You Bully Me!!!!* sobs..sobs...
Let's reflect what we have done together always k...
Love you always my dear girl!

Saturday, April 11, 2009

A portion of me...

Exams ends... OSCE over... Results released... Clinical coming...

Ever since I stepped into the trough of semester 2, I never had a good rest. I kept crying to God asking Him to help me in my life in Uni. I still can't accept that I'm still in Uni. Time flies so fast that I wish time could just stop for a moment. I had many heavy subjects this semester which really drive me crazy most of the time. I felt so pressured as I am a scholar too. I have come to realization that studying hard is not enough. Just imagine??? I have lectures from 8.30am to 5.30 pm. Then, I continue with revision from 6.30 to 10pm. It's still not enough I guess. My performance for this semester wasn't as good as before edi. Perhaps, studying in the library doesn't work at all. But... I don't feel peace studying in Vista. Vista's environment is incomparable to home.

Almost everyday daddy called me to encourage me. Many times I feel like crying to him but I didn't. This is what happens;
Dad: Rachel, how's ur day today?
Me: Ok lar...
Dad: What abt studies?
Me: I Am studying.
Dad: Wanna go out somewhere?
Me: Do I have the time to take break? Exams are nearing and I have not finished studying.
Dad: You have to take a break don't you?
Me: I wish so, dad.. But I just can't. T.T *starting to cry in my heart*
Dad: Oh..ok it's up to you.
Me: Yeah, I had no choice.
Sighs.. I'm too stressed up at that moment.

1st paper for BMS was just average and I almost failed for 2nd paper. I didn't manage to answer Nutrition topics. After 2nd paper exams end, I called daddy. I cry again. I feel very disappointed of myself for not performing well. I thought I try my best but it wasn't enough. Is life has to be this tough? Am I for nursing? Dear Lord, lead me to the right path. This is just a portion.

As for Health Assessment, I became weak mentally and couldn't concentrate on the things that I should do. It was disasterous and in high risk. I practically spoil my whole precious paper. I really don't know what's going on with myself. T.T I feel so demotivated after my lecturer gave feedback on my paper. I disappointed her as well. I really feel sad about it. My spirit is so discouraged and starting to blame myself for not studying harder. I questioned myself, "How to be a NURSE if you're not sure what you're doing????" People may see me smiling and laughing..but deep in me, I'm crying and weeping for all the disappointment that I had for myself. At this moment, I just wished to be isolated and to be alone. But somehow, God just don't allow me to be alone.

*cries*
Well, I'm dreadfully "emo" now...

Monday, February 2, 2009

Playing time!

Right after celebrating CNY in Malacca, we headed to our new house in Bukit Beruntung, Rawang to do some cleaning up. Maybe my family will be shifting in by end of this year according to God's will. It was supposed to be this year, but it wasn't God's will to do so. Hahahaha... My younger brother has plenty of toys. And this is what we do:

What are those toys if you wonder? 3 year old toys lor!!! XD Hahaha..... Reflecting these photos cheers me up. At least I know I had a great time during my holidays. Semester 2 I'm coming! May the Lord be with me always! Amen!

~Rae finally checked out~

Sunday, February 1, 2009

What I do during CNY?

My brother and Sister too bored... =p

Me too.. Started posing at Ah Kong's hse! Anyway, that's my new dress. My parents like it a lot.

My brother and Sister in "red"... Hot!

My younger brother all ready to go out!

My elder brother and I. Getting ready for visitation...

My family at Dataran Pahlwan

Mom, Me and Dad. Lovely photo... just love it! XD

Me at Mahkota Parade... See?? I gained a lot of weight cause eating too much.... I have to control already!

This is the Char O Chian (Fried Oyster). Honestly, it doesn't reach my expectation cause the oyster wasn't fresh. But overall, the flour and the egg was nice.

This is Char Tou Kueh(Radish Cake) See?? The person didn't fry properly. Got one big chunk there. hahahaha... XD What to expect? RM 2.50 only ma...

Wan Tan Mee. What so special? Cause it's not the same as KL's one. The colour and taste is different. Plus, this one is added with chilli sauce.

Errmm... I don't know what to call this... It's my dad's favourite. He loves Oriental food.. Especially soy bean made food. It's has herbal soup flavour with tau kee, tau pok and black fungus.

Well, everyone knows this is Satay Celup lor...

A new transition

Time is up! My holidays is going to an end by tomorrow. Perhaps, you might not be seeing me blogging that often as before. I can't doubt that university life is busy. I wish I could self-deny and time would just stop..Sighs..Unfortunately, time is short and flying as fast as a bullet train. (Unless I stare at the clock for 24 hrs, perhaps it might be slower) *winks* Crazy thoughts... I got an e-mail which pulls me down, deep down... Semester 2 Timetable!!!! Duh.... I have seen it. *heavily sighs* I'm going to have 8.30am to 5.30pm lecture non-stop!!!!!! The most rest I got is 15 min interval of each lectures and one lunch break. What is this?????? Nursing so hard mea....??? Basic Medical Sciences 2, Health Assessment, Pharmacology, Communicable Diseases and Microbiology & Parasitology.... I won't get enough sleep for this semester. God, help me!! I really need your Strength!!! Let the weak say I am strong!! I'm starting to be more anxious than before. My finals for last semester wasn't good at all. Sighs.... I thought I worked hard enough but it seems nothing is enough. My parents are having high hopes that I will do better in this coming semester. I'm really worried. Plus I have OCE exam too. What is OCE? Oxxx Clinical Examination. Hahaha... I forgot what O stands for. I will check it out if I do ever remember.. I just wish that someone would just pop up and give some encouragement verbally. I think I need it badly. By God's grace, I'm still standing still. Otherwise, I might be super weak and fallen away.

See? The way I blog also shows that my ending-holiday-mood isn't good.. Hahaha.. *sarcastic* I wish to be as cheerful as before just like during the holidays. Oh yeah.. if I speak the positive ones, then I'll be happy lor! Ya ya.. correcto! This year for CNY, I spent almost a week in Malacca. I think from Friday night (23 Jan) to Thursday (29 Jan). This year's CNY celebration is the longest. Partly, I didn't went back last year because I was working in Salvation and my parents are not free too. That's when Jon brag that he got 40 packets of angpow.. Hahahaha... aduh... I can't break that record either. Overall, okay lar..Hehehe..=p

CNY eve: Have reunion dinner with my mom's family cos I had it with my dad's family already.
1st day CNY: Go Ah Kong house. The first house that must visit. My grandparents are happy to see us. Hehehe..=P
2nd day CNY till 4th day CNY: Visit my uncles and aunties.. Hehehe.. I collected a lot of angpows! Give thanks to what God has blessed me with. At least, I can use it for a good purpose.
5th day CNY: Family time... We spend time going around Malacca to places like Bandar Hilir (Dataran Pahlawan & Mahkota Parade) for shopping and eating out. The food that my siblings and I always longed for... Char O Chian and Satay Celup! Yum yum.... Show you the pictures later. Sorry, if it's not clear. Next place, we went to Ujong Pasir for Char Tou Kueh (Radish Cake) and also Ice Pak Poh (Locally called ABC) I know it's a super long blog, I'm just grabbing the opportunity to blabber everything out. Hehehe..

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

CNY Family Reunion

Aunty Siok Sin and Me...with a cake...=P

My cousin, Shanon and Me.. he is really cute cos he is a poser..hehee

These are my cousins and siblings. From the left= Boys: Samuel,Joseph, Joel, Adriel(my younger bro). Girls: Sha-Mayne, Shanon, Yvonne, Julia(my younder sis) and Elaine.